Sunday, September 8, 2013

Blogs and Diaries

Wow, has it been a looooong hiatus! I haven't even visited this lonely blog in so long.

I remember as a kid I used to keep a diary.  Anything you wanted to know about me you could easily find out from a quick read, and I am sure some of my sisters did exactly that! With six of them it was bound to happen! However, like this blog I would sometimes go years without making an entry.

Now-a-days if you want to know about what's going on ya need to read about it on Facebook. However, there is something so soothing for me to write out what lessons I am learning from God.  Going back to read some of my earlier entries I love to see where God has taken me and can't wait to see where/what adventures he has in store for me next.

My latest adventure is moving across the country to North Dakota from New Mexico. I have several blogs going right now and have written about the new move here: 

This blog is a chronicle of my spiritual journey. I love sharing and I hope you learn from what God is teaching me.  Will be here hopefully back soon to share again.

Provebs 3: 1-5 "My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands in your heart, for they will prolong your life many years and bring you peace and prosperity. Let love an faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths.

Not perfect but striving to be like the one who is.  Peace to you. ~ Jenny ~

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Pet Gophers

I had this desire to see my yard become a beautiful garden. I spent time and effort weeding and putting in good soil. I studied the PH of the soil in my area, and what I needed to do to improve the ground. I made a plan and designed my flower beds. I planted trees and watered and knew in time I would have the perfect garden. Maybe not the garden of Eden, but in my minds eye it would be the envy of all my neighbors. Maybe I'd win an award or be featured in some garden magazine! I would turn our dessert landscape into an Oasis! A woman can dream can't she!???

Unfortunately I failed to consult with my other neighbors, the ones below the ground. My 2.5 acres of land had a plethora of them. I had noticed these little holes but never knew what they were. Suddenly plants were disappearing. Young trees were dying. All of my hard work and money disappearing without a trace! They never even stood a chance. My little neighbors had an army and they had invaded. GOPHERS! They were so well nourished on my garden they decided to populate and build homes to stay. I have tried everything to get rid of these pesky little critters. At first I tried humane ways, staking the ground with noise makers that would vibrate and make them leave, when that didn't work I tried smoke, filling holes with water, collapsing tunnels, gum, mothballs, poison, traps, anytime someone suggested something new I tried it. All to no avail. I have surrendered and allowed them the victory. I now grow things in pots and planters.

In life I feel the need to evaluate every situation and see what I can learn. My first thought was I was prideful, (Proverbs 11:2 When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.) There is no sin in dreaming, or planting a garden, or even in wanting a beautiful garden, but maybe wanting your yard to look better than everyone elses isn't such a good idea.

Next I thought of how my sins are like gophers and attacks of the enemy. (Proverbs 28:13 He who covers his transgressions shall not prosper, but whoever confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.)

Some times we are working so hard for the Lord, trying all we can to keep our outward appearance above reproach that we fail to look below the surface to see the hidden places the enemy can attack.
If there is unconfessed sin in my life, or areas I fail to examine in the light of God's redeeming word, I can stumble without realizing it until it's too late. I have some pet gophers in my life. Pride, anger, and a real problem, which lately I am learning to overcome, being discontent.

Philippians 4:11 has been my new battle cry... "For I have learned to be content in all circumstances."

I have been learning recently, from Robert Jeffress book "The Road most Traveled: Releasing the power of Contentment in your life," that Contentment comes from the word containment. A person who is self contained drives satisfaction from inner resources rather than external sources. He finishes that thought with, "contentment means being at peace with the unchangeable circumstances, choices and even mistakes that shape our destiny." (pp 28-29) The apostle Paul embraced his destiny, in plenty or in want. Being content isn't just learning to live with the gophers in your life, it is the same lesson God was teaching me at Christmas, it is being at peace with the gophers, (unchangeable circumstances) without allowing them to cause me to become complacent and at ease in my sin. I am not perfect, I am learning to be content in all circumstances, and striving to be like the one who is!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


This Christmas came and went so fast I can hardly believe it. We were sure things would be tight this year. (More so than usual anyway.) I am amazed at how the Lord provided for us. We got bonuses from our church, monetary gifts from congregation members, and bills paid off. While praising his name for His abundant provisions He gave me a wonderful reminder that I wanted to share.
As I sat there bathing in this profound sense of peace that truly passed all of "my" understanding I felt the beautiful presence of our Creator. In that moment the Lord spoke to me. He said, "Remember this peace." You know that peace you feel when the bills are paid, the kids are well, the house is clean, there's food in the pantry, there are no problems at work, your relationship with God is hot and on fire, and life in general is good? Everything is calm, there are no storms. Can you picture it? Can you feel it? Now take that feeling and hold on to it, that is the same peace you should feel when the storms of life are all around you and everything seems to be an uphill battle.

When I experience trials it is hard to be mindful of the presence and peace of God. I forget how, "he will never leave me, nor forsake me." God showed me that the next time troubles come I am to "Remember this peace." His peace is there when we are struggling to pay bills, or when children are sick. His peace does not leave when I am grieving over the loss of a friend to cancer. Nor does it leave when he places us in ministries that are tougher than I think I can handle. His peace is there when praying for a family member who does not know the presence of God in her life. His peace is one of His attributes. I can know this peace in good times and in bad. It is easier to understand His peace when life seems good. However, it is a much more powerful witness when we tenaciously take hold of that beautiful gift when life is anything but peaceful. God is in control of my life and my circumstances. I may not be perfect but I know the one who is.

Thursday, November 5, 2009


Today Charlie was playing with a little boy at school throwing rocks at each other. Sometimes when boys play rough somebody gets hurt. Charlie got angry when a rock hit him in the head. In anger he retaliated by hurling a rock at the offender, which hit the boy in the mouth and damaged a tooth. Thank God that is all that it did. This is the difficult part of parenting. We confronted our son with the word of God. Trying to get at his heart:

"Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." Romans 12:21

11 A fool gives full vent to his anger,
but a wise man keeps himself under control. Proverbs 29: 11

"for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires." James 1:20

He then was grounded to his bedroom and not allowed out except for dinner and bathroom break. My husband and I tried to impress upon him the seriousness of his offense. At his desk in his room he wrote a letter of apology to the boy and his parents. We will be making full restitution on Charlie's behalf to the parents for any medical cost to repair the tooth, because "A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold." Proverbs 22:1
However, Charlie will be doing extra chores to pay for it himself, so that he understands the cost of what he has done. This is regrettably painful for us as well, as we cannot afford to pay another bill right now. It pains me to even think about that part of this.

So my friends what is the point of sharing all this? Parenting is the best job I've ever had. I wouldn't trade it for all the world. Most moms wouldn't. There was a time, when my older boys were little, if they had done something like this, I would have been a wreck. I would have seen it as a reflection of my poor parenting. Now, I realize that even when we parent to the best of our abilities our children make mistakes. It's easy to parent well when our children behave well. However, it is when they do something regretable that parenting is most significant. It is in these times we, the child and the parents, learn the most. I have learned to be calm, gracious, and forgiving of my children when they do wrong. They learn what they should have done, and of God's mercy and forgiveness, and how to accept consequences for their offenses.

Our heavenly Father sometimes must chasten us when we do wrong, and although he forgives us when we ask, we still usually have some consequence for our actions. Our sin hurts ourselves, but many times it hurts those we love around us too. A good lesson for our son to learn. There will be a little less for groceries for the next few months while we pay this off. *sigh* Sometimes doing the right thing by, and for, our children hurts.

After this I am making up "Charlie's restitution chart" and hanging it on the fridge. It will have a list of chores he must do every day to earn points, in lieu of the money we will be paying. If you are reading this around the 6th of November, please pray that it won't be very much for us to pay. Charlie isn't perfect either, obviously (smile) but we love him dearly, and hope to encourage him to be like the one who is.

UPDATE: Looks like it's gonna cost us $800.00. *sigh* I trust you Lord.
UPDATE: Our homeowners insurance is covering the whole cost! So glad we trusted! LOL!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


I have so many ideas I want to write about. I come here often and visit my poor lonely blog. I thought about forgiveness all this week. Last week I pondered beauty and what it looks like in God's economy. Dressing myself up in the righteousness of God. *sigh* Now that I am gainfully employed I have more time for bible study and less for writing. Go figure. I will try to write something this week. I am too tired for now. I need a decent night sleep... hmmm, that is another topic I could write about! Sleep, or the seeming lack of it that I've been getting lately. I'm off! I'm so tired I can't tell if any of this made sense! Where are those shrugging "smiley's" my friend Icebear is so good at finding??

Tuesday, September 29, 2009


I have been struggling with this word lately. I seem to be late every where I go. The strange thing is I leave everything ready the night before for the kids and myself. I even double check.

My heart really aches over this. I don't want people to have the impression that I am disorganized, or worse that I care more for myself than I do for them and that is why I am late. I could make a million excuses, or think of a million reasons for my lateness, but it doesn't matter. Late is late, and habitually late is inexcusable. This morning I went to God's word for help in this area. Here is a little of what the Lord showed me.

The dictionary says: Reliable–(adjective) that may be relied on; dependable in achievement, accuracy, honesty.

In Ruth chapter 3:1-18. Naomi tells Ruth to go and lay at the feet of Boaz, asking him to become her kinsman redeemer. However, she has a kinsman who is closer to her so Boaz resolves to find an answer for her and Naomi. The key part of this is in verse 18: "Wait, my daughter, until you find out what happens. For the man will not rest until the matter is settled today." Boaz was a known and respected man. His integrity made it possible for Naomi to know that once Boaz gave his word he would follow through. Such reliable people would stand out in any age. Do others regard me as a person who will do as I say I will? Not if I am late, or if I forget an appointment.

In 1 Chronicles 9:17-34 regarding the keepers of the gates :

All those chosen as gatekeepers were two hundred and twelve. They were recorded by their genealogy, in their villages. David and Samuel the seer had appointed them to their trusted office. 23 So they and their children were in charge of the gates of the house of the LORD, the house of the tabernacle, by assignment. 24 The gatekeepers were assigned to the four directions: the east, west, north, and south. 25 And their brethren in their villages had to come with them from time to time for seven days. 26 For in this trusted office were four chief gatekeepers; they were Levites. And they had charge over the chambers and treasuries of the house of God. 27 And they lodged all around the house of God because they had the responsibility, and they were in charge of opening it every morning.

What if they had been late every day? I doubt that the Lord, through David and Samuel, would have given them such an awesome responsibility. They guarded the four main entrances to the temple and opened the gates each morning for those who wanted to worship! They also did other daily tasks like cleaning, preparing offerings, and accounting for the gifts for the temple. They had to be reliable, honest and trustworthy. One of my many excuses for being late is I have so many responsibilities. Getting everyone up and ready in the morning, cleaning, cooking, driving to school... hmmm, their responsibilities seem very similar. The way I carry out my responsibilities ought to always be marked by reliability. How else will I set the example that I want my children to follow?

Finally in Psalm 33: 1-22 For the word of the Lord is right and true; He is faithful in all he does.

My God is faithful in all He does. I trust Him completely because He always does what He says He will. He does not lie, forget, change His words, or leave His promises unfulfilled: And HE is never late. As His follower I am to follow His example. However imperfect I may be I need to strive a little harder in this area to be like the one who is.

Father, I ask your forgiveness for not being more reliable. Help me to grow in this area. Give me the will and understanding of how to better structure my time so I do not dishonor you. Your word says a good name is to be had above all riches, let me give you glory in this. I pray this in the name of your precious son Jesus, Amen.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

The Glory of God

I have been contemplating what it means this week on "Reflecting the Glory of God."
Exodus 15:11
"Who among the gods is like you, O LORD ?
Who is like you—
majestic in holiness,
awesome in glory,
working wonders?

I read passages like this in scripture and love meditating on God's glory. I love to think of the things He has done in the past through His prophets, and His ultimate redeeming work on the Cross. I wonder at how we get to spend eternity with Him singing of His Greatness without ceasing and never be tired of it. "When we've been there ten thousand years..." Right now on earth we only get glimpses of God's Glory.

1 Corinthians 13:12 (New International Version)
12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

What does this look like for us now as we walk this earth? Is reflecting the Glory of God only singing praises to Him when you are feeling like it? or When He has done something wonderful in your life? Anah and I lay on her bed snuggling a few weeks ago discussing this very subject. We looked out at the moon and discussed how it didn't give off it's own light but reflected the light of the sun. I mentioned to her that this is what we are supposed to do with Jesus. Reflect His glory to a lost and dying world. But this conversation started me thinking. What does that look like? How can I show God's love in all of my actions, my thoughts, my prayers? I am so easily distracted and like anyone my flesh rises up and demands that I get the glory for things I do. God gave me an opportunity, almost immediately, to put what He was teaching me in action.

In a conversation with a friend she mentioned something to me in passing that hurt my heart. I immediately wanted to show my displeasure, but recognized it would be prudent to be silent, let the moment pass, and think on it more thoroughly. Some times I analyze too much the things that people say. This time I prayed as I was driving away that God would reveal to my heart the intent of the situation. That He would give me her perspective and that I would reflect His glory in that moment and not my own. She had to change something that would effect me and my plans. But the plans were about things that I wanted to do in the service of God. His plans, not mine. What a difference it made in my heart. I was able to let go and not be overly concerned about it. The most amazing thing is I felt as if God reached down from heaven and gave me a pat on the head and said, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

So for this lesson I learned it is important that the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable to God. Reflecting His glory is not drawing attention to myself and my plans, but rather to focus on Him and to be flexible when things change. Being slow to speak, and slow to anger gives Him glory because I am wanting to be obedient to Him and accomplish His righteousness. (James 1:19-21) The Lord knows I'm not perfect, but I am striving to be like the one is!
Psalm 19:14 (New International Version)

14 May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

New International Version (NIV)

James 1:19-21 (Holman Christian Standard Bible)

19 My dearly loved brothers, understand this: everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger, A)">(A) 20 for man's anger does not accomplish God's righteousness. 21 Therefore, ridding yourselves of all moral filth and evil excess, humbly receive the implanted word, which is able to save you. B)">(B) [a]

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